"Expected End" will always be a little miracle song to me. It was a rainy, shitty Monday when I wrote that song. The overdramatic, whining, little girl I am, I felt very bad about a certain situation so that I actually finished writing and recording the whole song in a few hours. On that day I was horribly worried about something very special to end and I didn't know what to do except to write a song about it. "Expected End" was actually a song for one voice and piano, but when I started recording it on my computer, I added one voice, then another and another and another. I added so many voices that the piano felt unnecessary so I ended up removing it. When I play this song at a concert I still play the "original" piano version, but I also really enjoy the a cappella one.
lyrics:
the doors are closed
all windows shut
I feel like I am stuck
in my own little head's mess
there is no going on
I feel a little less
we tried, we tried
until my feet were sore
from running away of the truth
there is no proof
we were not meant to be
but now I see
there is no proof we could be
and I am hurt from falling falling falling
falling more in love with you
reality hit as I hit the ground
now I see you cannot be found
the past is past
but if you were to ask
me to run away with you
without a blink and without to think (grammatically incorrect ayee)
I would put my end in your hopeless hand
but I am hurt from hearing hearing hearing
hearing what you cannot say
to this day I want you to see
that you too, want me to stay
but instead you close your eyes
and what is left are these few lies
about a fairytale that went a little wrong
with no happy end
but with this song