I can't believe it
my second single "I Don't Wanna" is out!
big big thanks go out to Fridolin Krenn for co-producing and mixing the song, to Mathias Garmusch for mastering and Felix Paschke for recording the drums and supporting me aaaaall the way <3
I wrote this song back in December 2021 when everything felt like too much, but not enough at the same time. I was torn between the max of emotions. A constant fight of being insanely happy and terribly sad. I tried capturing this feeling in the sound of the song - a feeling like drowning in emotions, everything building up and up until everything eventually crashes and you end up being alone with all these emotions.
Writing songs has always helped me putting my feelings into words. Right after I wrote this song, I quit my job, university and cancelled the contract of my flat. Nothing more to say haha
We shot the cover/visualizer at the beginning of this year, when we spent 1,5 months in Tenerife, which was my first stop of getting out of Austria after feeling trapped for quite a long time. With all this rona bullshit, I wasn't having the best time back home. It felt like all of the fun parts (like going to concerts, playing concerts, going on parties,...) were taken away from me but I still had to work and live a "normal life". That all got to me until I eventually quit everrrrything.
"I Don't Wanna" is a song for everyone who feels everything at once. About dealing with these emotions. Not just running away. But actually acting and doing something about them.
lyrics:
I don’t wanna fall in love anymore
What’s the use in looking for
Someone who cheers up my heart
When they only play a temporary part
I don’t wanna fall in love anymore
I don’t wanna care anymore
What’s the use in searching for
A better version of myself
Who I’m pretending to be happy with
I don’t wanna care anymore
It’s always more and more and less
And less I don’t even know myself
Who am I doing this for?
I don’t wanna rush anymore
What’s the use in waiting for
More time to come my way
When I run out of time anyway
I don’t wanna rush anymore
It’s always more and more and less
And less I don’t even know myself
Who am I doing this for?
It’s always more and more and less
And less I don’t even know myself
Who am I doing this for?
I don’t wanna stay anymore
What’s the use in going for
Something that makes you feel sane
When everything just stays the same
I don’t wanna stay anymore