I can't make you love me - a cover featuring Georg Neureiter

yeah yeah here is my first official cover! And I feel very honoured to be singing it with the wonderful Georg Neureiter. Georg and I actually met for the first time, when we were both playing at the Tubes in Graz and I was playing as his support act. Back then he didn't know that I've seen him perform about a year before and cried during his performance, because it was so touching. Last Wednesday we decided to meet in the park and work on a little cover of one of the truest and most touching songs I know "I can't make you love me". I hope everyone enjoys watching it as much as we enjoyed making it!

go check him out:
www.instagram.com/georgneureiter 
www.facebook.com/georgneureiterofficial
www.georgneureiter.jimdo.com

31 557 600 s

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"31 557 600 s" is a song that I wrote on the 19th of June in 2017. 31 557 600 is the amount of seconds that one year has. Exactly one year before I wrote that song, a, to this day, very special thing happened, so I decided to write song about all the feelings I had concerning that one event. As the song goes on it modulates from f-major to g-major, but I don't really know how that happened, because I wasn't thinking like "wow I am going to modulate from f-major to g-major!!" while writing it. It just happened...somehow.  A couple of weeks ago a friend of mine, Michael Feichtenberger, asked if we wanted to do a music video together. He mentioned the "Reininghausgründe", which is an old beer factory in Graz, that they are planning to tear down in the near future. Therefore, people are trying to make the best out of it as long as it is still standing. I've heard many cool things about that location so I was totally into the idea of making a music video there. We found out later that a very old piano is standing there, which couldn't be any more perfect. Michael, Valentin Hasebe (who did the recording and mixing) and I spent a whole afternoon there and ended up with a pretty cool video.

Michael's facebook page: https://m.facebook.com/Franknstein-Production-136270117086227/

the lyrics:  

thirty-one-million-five-hundred-fifty-seven-thousand-six-hundred seconds 
and you still leave my mind open to reckon 
to guess how much more time we have and when you're going to leave 
me behind with my own lost mind for nobody else to find 
for nobody else to find  
I was once a small girl who thought she would never be alone 
there was a time when we both hadn't known about each other  
and my hands still smell like you with your skin under my nails, how true 
it's the many things you do to my heart when my head wants to think of you  
thirty-one-million-five-hundred-fifty-seven-thousand-six-hundred seconds 
and you still leave my mind open to reckon 
to guess how much more time we have and when you're going to leave 
me behind with my own lost mind for nobody else to find
and a bird starts whining as it sees you go away and leave
me behind with my own lost mind
for nobody else to find
nobody knows  
where to find me only you know 
nobody knows 
where to find me 
but now you are gone

Expected End

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"Expected End" will always be a little miracle song to me. It was a rainy, shitty Monday when I wrote that song. The overdramatic, whining, little girl I am, I felt very bad about a certain situation so that I actually finished writing and recording the whole song in a few hours. On that day I was horribly worried about something very special to end and I didn't know what to do except to write a song about it. "Expected End" was actually a song for one voice and piano, but when I started recording it on my computer, I added one voice, then another and another and another. I added so many voices that the piano felt unnecessary so I ended up removing it. When I play this song at a concert I still play the "original" piano version, but I also really enjoy the a cappella one.

lyrics:

the doors are closed all windows shut I feel like I am stuck in my own little head's mess there is no going on I feel a little less we tried, we tried until my feet were sore from running away of the truth there is no proof we were not meant to be but now I see there is no proof we could be and I am hurt from falling falling falling falling more in love with you reality hit as I hit the ground now I see you cannot be found the past is past but if you were to ask me to run away with you without a blink and without to think (grammatically incorrect ayee) I would put my end in your hopeless hand but I am hurt from hearing hearing hearing hearing what you cannot say to this day I want you to see that you too, want me to stay but instead you close your eyes and what is left are these few lies about a fairytale that went a little wrong with no happy end but with this song

3 AM

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"3AM" is my first song that I decided to upload just one day before my birthday - kind of as a pre-birthday present from me to myself. I always wanted to write my own songs and publish them somewhere online, but I was never sure how to start with it. In December 2017 I finally made myself a big Christmas present and bought a Mac Book and the music software "Logic". I was kinda freaking out with all the different instruments, trashy beats and vocals you are able to put together with just a few clicks. Even though most of my music is totally nothing like "3AM", I decided for it to be the first song that I upload on the internet. I didn't want to publish it without a video, but I also didn't want to make a super complicated video. Therefore I decided to film something that Marie, a very good friend of mine, and I are (usually) very good at; making pancakes. 

In the end, I think that it turned out pretty good and I still love watching the video.

here are the lyrics for anyone who is interested:

small salty drops on my leopard coat

as we make our way down the road

thoughts so heavy I drop down on my knees

I prefer drowning my feelings in melodies

and I refuse to run away

'cause there's so many things that make me want to stay

and I wish this pain would go away

but I'm still drowning in thoughts of my mistakes from yesterday

piece by piece I write that note

to tell you guys how I hate it so

we have so many things to tell about each one's needs

but every single one is too afraid to speak

chorus

now it's 3 A.M. and I'm on my own

how I've always hated to be alone

but now I write these songs while I sit on my knees

I will always drown my feelings in melodies

SWITCHING THINGS UP A BIT

Well hello there! 

It's been a while and I am sorry about that, but this blog was usually for fashion posts only and I have been getting a bit lazy in this area since music has become even more important to me and is actually the biggest part of my life now.

As most people know, I have started uploading my own music to Youtube and Soundcloud. I am very happy that many people seem to enjoy listening to my songs which also lead to many people asking where/if they can buy/download the songs.

So far I haven't planned on releasing an EP or even a whole album, but I wanted to give everyone the chance to listen to my songs outside Youtube or Soundcloud. Therefore I will start uploading my songs to "Google Sites" where everyone can download my songs for free.

I am also planning on making a lil blogpost about each song. In that kind of blogpost I might just upload the lyrics, say something about the video (if there is one) or even tell a little bit about the background story. We shall see about that.

Every now and then I might still upload a "normal" fashion post, but I will mainly use this blog now for my music journey, that's why I have changed the name from "Hiraelle" to "Fraeulein Astrid".

Thanks for reading 

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Astrid