This day will always hold a special place in my heart ♥ and as it was exactly a year ago I decided to upload a video dedicated to it (with my song “Dear Beloved” in the background).
I have to say, the 16th of December 2018 was a hella stressful day but also a very exciting and successful day for me, because it was my first solo show/concert ever and it was sould outttt (still cannot believe itttt!!!!).
Many many thanks go to the lovely people of the KIZ RoyalKino Graz who trusted me and let me have a concert in their cinema (which was their first concert ever!), Oscar for supporting me all the way and for filming these snippets, Nino for joining me on stage for a song, Elisa for making the music video for “But Art Will Grow” and aaaaaaaaaall the beautiful, kind, lovely, sweet people who showed up at my event! thank you all for your love and support ♥♥♥ maybe I’ll have a concert at a cinema again one day...
the "Herbstseufzer" is my first german song ever and I actually wrote it because it was a homework for university. Our professor gave us this beautiful poem called "Herbstseufzer" by Luise Hensel and told us to turn it into a song. As I was quite happy with my result, I decided to play this song at my concerts as well.
Two weeks ago I had the honour to work with Stephan Herzog on a beautiful live video for this song. We filmed it at the Kultursalon Graz, which is a gorgeous big room with an amazing piano and decided to go for a simple "live video" vibe and nothing to wild.
Big thanks go to Konstantin Drewes who mixed and mastered the recording!
I am very happy with the result and therefore even more excited to show it to you!
you can download this song for free (or not for free if you want to donate something) on my bandcamp account:
download this version for free here Well well I think everyone knows now that I've been travelling around a bit in Southeast Asia blah blah and all that But not everyone might know, that while travelling we met some super cool and talented musicians. And one of them is Riansyah Razali. We met him when he was playing at Deus Ex Machina with his friend Alex (their duo is called Relax). One day Rian and I decided to sit together and work on a song - I really wanted to make a different version of my song "But Art Will Grow" and was very lucky when Rian agreed to do it. Working this version out was a lot of fun - we changed some chords and added a little melody part after each chorus and I feel like the whole mood of this song totally changed. The video was filmed at our homestay by Oscar where we stayed at, but we actually performed this song at two other locations too - one of them was Deus. I am very lucky to have met these wonderful people and will hopefully see them again one day. here's the link to one of Rian's bands "Coconightman": https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCHlJ9QpXui1Ihr142lrUE-w
Now, in the middle of July, I am back home in beautiful Austria. But a few weeks ago I was still in Bali and travelling around Southeast Asia.
As a person who uses her music to express her feelings and talk about situations (to herself), I was struggling a bit while travelling, because we weren't able to find a piano. The lucky girl I am, Oscar decided to buy himself an acoustic guitar and I was very honoured to use it too. Most people know that my guitar skills are very limited to basic chords and a few picking patterns, so I wanted to get to know this beautiful instrument a bit more. During playing around for a few days/weeks - this song kinda just happened.
The story behind this song is a little behind confusing as the first verse is about a different situation than the second and third one. The first verse is about not wanting to lose someone, about how horrible it would feel to just let that one person go and "turn your back to" and about how beautiful this life we have actually is.
The second and third verse are about certain people (or let's say one certain person) whose attitude towards life and life decisions I don't quite understand and I wish this person could see it like I do or at least try to. A person whose feelings I seem to have hurt, because of what I said and how I tried to see the big picture. I am kinda sorry about that but at the same time I am not - it's a very weird feeling so I decided to express it through a song.
Filming this video wasn't a big a challenge as I just sat down and wonderful Oscar filmed the whole thing with his camera. Buuuuuuuuut getting this video up on Youtube was a pain in the ass, because we didn't have a laptop with us. At first we tried getting the video on our phones but that didn't work out. We were very lucky when our "french neighbours" from our homestay, Caroline and Patrice (two of the nicest people I've ever met) offered us to use their laptop. And this is the story about how this video finally made it up on Youtube.
Lyrics:
so sleep in my golden breath
I would rather die a silver death
than to have this picture of you
as a person I've turned my back to
now come running through these gentle woods
and see this world just like I would
as a life we've built with no regrets
where we sleep in our shiny nets
now run
through the borderline x2
now run
through the borderline
and see what's behind
now weep as much as you have to
but realise that it's just stopping you
from daring to make that one step
that could bring you closer to what you've dreamed
alright - so as I already said in the description box of the Youtube video, I wrote this song exactly one year ago. Like all of my songs, it is a very personal topic to me that I am singing about. But this time it's not just about me/my story. It's also about my long-time-primary-school-to-highschool-best friend and her dad. I am not going to explain the story any further as the lyrics of the song already say enough.
For the video I decided to film a beach in Antalya. I couldn't make it to the funeral, because I had booked this trip to Antalya weeks before, but I still wanted to capture this moment, therefore I filmed the waves crashing on the beach for three minutes.
Lyrics:
so my mom called and told me that you left the world on Saturday
it feels like yesterday when we performed our self-written plays for you
so it's Sunday and it's beautiful outside
but I don't understand why the sky doesn't cry
or is heaven happy 'cause there is a new angel ready to fly?
So now it's Tuesday and your wife send an invitation for saying goodbye
I'll probably never understand why people have to go after all
It's still Tuesday and it's depressed grey outside
so now the sky decided to finally cry
but heaven is happy 'cause there is a new angel ready to fly
It was December 21, 2018 and I was bored as hell. I actually had a concert on that day at Cafe Kaiserfeld (which was really cool by the way) and had nothing else to do than practice for that concert. I always knew that I wanted to cover a Christmas song, but I never got to that point where I actually did it. A couple of days before December 21 I was partying with friends, getting a bit tipsy, talking about music (Christmas songs in particular) and one girl had the great idea of covering Santa Baby. And I thought "Oh well, the original lyrics are shit so why not make my own version?". So this is how I ended up in my pjs, two days later, changing the lyrics of Santa Baby, recording the whole thing and making the most stupid music video, that has ever existed, in one day.
I know that this blogpost is very late, but if you happen to watch my video now in February, have fun!
Lyrics:
Santa baby, slip a keytar under the tree for me
Been an awful good girl
Santa baby, and hurry down the chimney tonight
Santa baby, a 61 midi keyboard too,
light blue
I'll wait up for you, dear
Santa baby, and hurry down the chimney tonight
Think of all the mics I’ve kissed
Now think of all the chords that I haven't missed
Next year I could be also good
If you'll check off my Christmas list
Santa baby, I want a mic and really that's not a lot
Been an angel all year
Santa baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight
Santa honey one thing that I really do need, the code
To an ableton live
Santa baby, so hurry down the chimney tonight
Santa cutie, and fill my stocking with a drum pad and gigs
Sign your 'x' on the line
Santa cutie, and hurry down the chimney tonight
Come and trim my Christmas tree
With decorations from the korg company
I really do believe in you
Now let's see if you believe in me
Santa baby, forgot to mention one thing for me, LP
I know this blogpost is very overdue, but I was actually planning to write a big ass post about the premiere of this music video at the cinema, the whole day, add pictures we took and explain everything that happened in detail.
Turned out we actually had more video footage of that day than pictures so there's actually going to be a super cool video about that day, kinda like a vlog I guess?, with a new song too. So stay tuned for that one!
and for everyone who is confused by me talking about a premiere in a cinema - here's a short explanation:
a couple of months ago a very good friend of mine, Elisa, was told to make a short draft for a music video for University and luckily I was the one she asked to do it with. After finishing that short draft we decided (or I convinced her?) to make a whole music video out of it. So we filmed more footage and months later the baby was finished. Because it was the "very first traditional professional typical music video" I wanted to give it the attention it deserved and decided to show it for the first time in a cinema. Not just any cinema, but the amazing KIZ RoyalKino (the cinema that I actually work at. coincidence? I think not.) Long story short: on December 16, 2018 I ended up having a SOLD OUT music video premiere and a concert at a cinema. It was one of the best days of my whole life.
Video by Elisa Wüntscher
Lyrics:
When I was younger
Just weeks ago
I still remember
the pain and sorrow
now I tell myself
The past is past
and our love mess
could never last
so I try to forget the good memories that still please my heart
slowly I realise that it takes time to heal
but art will grow
When I am older
I have one wish
I want a soul there
who feels the same
so I make a wish
for that special one
while in my head I quietly realise
that I need to be that one
so I try to forget the good memories that still please my heart
